I feel audacious those days. I turned down a job offer in a brand new gym, literally 2 minutes walk from the place where I live. Yesterday I quit my current job, and now I'm going to join the gym where I didn't want to work, behind my building. Should I be crying of laughing? LoL
And then I have this feeling that everything is going to be alright.
Happy birthday Zoe! You just turned one, two hours ago!
Since you were born my all tops are overstretched ( your little hands are always on the mission to find a milky boob ) and those with long sleeves are decorated with your snots.
Life with you Zoe is fun! ♥
I've made a big decision today. I'm not coming back to my old job.
There are few things going on right now. There is a headless doll waiting to be fixed, Zoe's first birthday party to be organized with DIY bee - day decorations, and my daily work to which I supposed to returned...
My parental leave is almost finished! I'm scared to even think about it!
So do I need to go back to work, now when I started to enjoy being a mom? Could I stay at home instead and get paid for it? Get paid for raising an emotionally stable, happy, brave and independent to some extent human being who will inspire others and soon enough pay taxes?
Lately, I'm in the creative zone. :D
Hello! Anybody here? It's been a while, right? Not sure if blogging in still trendy, but that doesn't matter one bit! Because today is the day! I will call that new series " A year from today ".
Exactly one year ago I started my maternity leave and I don't need to tell you how my life is different now from that life I used to live before I've become a mom. But it won't be about what was before, but rather it's gonna be about what's ahead of me. How my life can change in a year from today? Let's see!
So make yourself a nice cup of tea, sit down and be the witness of my journey.
Being a mom feels like that ;)
But seriously, how it is to be a mom?
Sometimes I hate it, and I sigh to how my life was before, and then things get easier and I kind of enjoy changing dirty nappies several times a day and sooth my baby for hours during the night.... Who am I kidding??!! My life is over! Big time! And probably I'll never have so much free time I used to have before.
But sometimes I try to imagine how my life would look like without Zoe and it seems so predictable, so BORING! With her I never can be sure if I'll survive till the next day without going crazy! ;) Life became so unpredictable, so dangerous with such a huge amount of caffeine in my veins and constant lack of proper sleep. Being a mom is a wonder.
I am like: "how the hell I can still function?"
Being a mom is a challenge.
I think I can't do any more , I'm exhausted and I want to jump out of the window or throw myself under a bus ,and then my baby pushes me even more, so I need to suck…
After leaving the hospital the third nipple ( hemorrhoid) was my biggest concern, but then I saw it! And I had to google straight away "how vagina looks like" ,because I was puzzled.
I said puzzled? Sorry! I was terrified! And I haven't looked there for another two weeks!
Then I finally got the courage to check the situation again, but unfortunately nothing has changed! WTF! I've been doing Kegel exercise since the second day after birth!
I got 3 stitches and I thought I will be pretty tight down there ,but it turns out that giant meteorite left giant destruction! Sex is out of the picture for a while!
Baby blues? Well...guess.
Hemorrhoids , gaping hole, marathon feeding, sore nipples, general exhaustion... You name it!
I cried, I was tired, I was angry, frustrated, depressed, but then I sucked it up and repeated like a mantra : THIS IS MY FIRST AND LAST BABY!!!
And here I am, 6 weeks and 2 days after Zoe has been born, asking my husband if he would consider anot…